It Didn't Occur to Me
It didn't even occur to me that tonight's host might want to promote next week's show tonight. I hadn't confirmed that show yet and had to apologize to him. I feel just awful.
I have been doing this job without much direction. When I do get direction, I follow orders and get things done well. But I need a road map. I need some guidance and unless I screw something up and am told, I don't know that I made a mistake. I do NOT like this way of training. Everything is done on the fly. I like being given guidelines and then, after I've learned those, improvise.
Every morning, I awaken to a sinking feeling in my stomach that churns into anxiety. I hope I'm doing the right thing. I hope the books and guests I'm getting please the host and the other producers. I hope the way I've been communicating to publishers and possible guests is correct. So much is unclear. So much is in the air. I think I need a bit more entrepreneurial spirit to excel at this. Perhaps I was meant to be a worker bee and not a queen bee.
2 Comments:
There's nothing wrong with you. Please don't take the mistakes personally...I am sure that you are doing your best and that is good enough.
love you
L.
Anne: May I suggest that your job might be a lot easier and more fun if you imagine that it is a white-water raft and that you are Linda, riding perched on the front with one foot in the water (and do let go of the "chicken" line every once in a while)!
Love from Harrisburg,
Bob E.
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