Things "They" Say

How can this get even better? - That is the question that I have been told to ask myself, when abusive or awful things are happening that make me scared, or when I want things to improve in my life."They", (New Age Philosophers) say if you ask that question, then things WILL get better. "They" talk a lot about "intention" - have a focused "intention" for what you want, and it will happen. This is the advice I have been getting from a lot of my friends, family and acquaintances, when my Topsy turvey, unfocused life keeps getting pulled out from under me, right as I am starting to get my footing. They tell me that I must not have a clear intention. That I am not thinking positively enough. They tell me to focus on how things keep working out for me. Yes - my life is not as shitty or as unstable as it gets, but I keep putting one foot in front of the other, keep moving forward and yet, the rug keeps getting pulled out from under me, just when things seem to be working out!! I move on. I take another step forward. I say kind things to others. I say kind things to myself. I hold a vision in my mind for the ideal life I want. And then, BAM! Here we go again.

"They" say I am creating this, to teach myself lessons I need to learn. "They" say I am bringing the exact thing into my life at the perfect moment. I am able to believe this - and then another health crisis or something happens and I can only wonder, "why have I brought this into my life, now"??? Nobody has a perfect life. I have certainly seen this, as I make this journey of lifetimes. (It feels like for these past few years I have lived many lifetimes, since I've had so many bizarre experiences and have resided in 8 or 9 different places, all across the USA). By the way, in case you've been feeling down about your current home or apartment, don't fret. I have stayed in many, many different places this year and I can ensure you that Better Homes and Gardens and TV have sure sold us a lie - nobody has a showplace home and if they do, they are not dealing with what is really bothering them in their lives. Most perfect house I lived in belonged to a couple who were months away from divorcing.

"They" shake their heads and say that I do not have enough faith. I think "they" say all of these things because my life scares the shit out of them and deep down they think I must deserve all of this crap, because otherwise it wouldn't be happening to me. If that is the case, then why are "they" sympathetic about cancer patients? Why do they send money to help poor starving kids in Africa? Oh wait, "they" don't. "They" tell themselves stories about Karma and how everybody has been on Earth lots of times and how those kids have chosen to be stricken with their disease or live in squalor with repressive government regimes, because they were probably cruel to other people in a past life and now they need to learn a lesson.

Personally, I think "they" say all of these things, so they don't have to be kind and lift a finger to help other people in need.