I Need Motivation

After having been flat on my back with a slipped disc (or something similar - no doctor diagnosis) for a week, I find myself getting a bit depressed today. Physically, however, I am feeling much, much better. Perhaps feeling good enough to start feeling bad?

I need some sort of hope for my future. Hope comes and goes, in fits and spurts. My recent post entitled "2011 - Bring it On, Baby" was, obviously, written during a hopeful spurt. But, perhaps my dreams of the rosy future I was shown last summer are dying. There has been no tangible proof that a change will come. And I was promised proof - in January. OK, so the month's not over yet. But, I'm getting pretty discouraged. I have to take care of myself. I know this. I have always taken care of myself.

I just don't feel like dealing with the crushing disappointment of the "real world" some days. More and more, I don't like the "real world". I fit into it less and less.

I need a vision or a dream to materialize into a plan and a scheme. To give me hope for the future.

Somebody? Anybody?