Post Film Festival Invisibility Disorder

The previous blog, entitled 'Invisible' was written following 3 days spent volunteering for the Taos Shortz Film Festival.

Sitting at the Will Call table, talking with film makers and actors from all over the world, I felt insecure and untrained and feeble-tongued. I also felt plain and unsophisticated, by comparison. I spend too much time comparing myself to others. And too much time talking myself out of feeling bad.

The films, however, brightened my mood. My favorite was an entry from Spain, "Nothing, Inc.". Featured a man hired to sit in a chair and do nothing, for 10 hours a day, 6 days a week. He couldn't even get out of the chair to relieve himself. The actor's comedic timing broke language barriers. Got to see more than 40 films in the 3 days. The whole reason for volunteering is to watch the movies for free. I was profoundly impacted by all of that visual stimulation and it affected my dreams for a couple of nights. Should have written them down.

Now back in the day-to-day world of my life, I don't care about being invisible - in fact, I think I prefer it. I have gone back to t'ai chi classes and walks in the back acreage with my dog. In this world, as long as I am healthy, I am happy.