Will I?

Will I ever find my way?
Will I ever again be excited at the break of day?
Will I ever know, for sure, what the hell happened to me?
Will I find the truth that was meant to set me free?
Will I ever learn from my mistakes?
Will I ever quell this constant ache?
Will I ever be part of "normal society" again?
Will I ever find a community of like-minded friends?
Oh where did I come from and where will I go?
If it is not up to me, then just who the hell knows?